Saturday, January 10, 2009

Not Everything Goes According To Plan

OK. Yesterday - was okay - in some ways it sucked. I was provoked by the alcoholic and by her attorney. And I provoked. And I argued back.

Arguing with an alcoholic's attorney. Now that is a new concept for Al-Anon. I think my wife's attorney was surprised. My attorney was surprised - for sure. My disease is I was so used to arguing with the alcoholic - arguing with a semi-sane person was/is actually fun.

Yes. I know. I shouldn't have. I am sort of beating myself up this morning and at the same time, realizing everything is as it is for a reason.

Everything is as it was meant to be.

There is comfort in that.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Please don't beat yourself up over this. You are human. When you are pricked, you bleed. When you are hit, you feel pain. You should congratulate yourself on those times when you are able to restrain yourself, but forgive yourself when you are just human. Be as good to yourself as you are to her.