Tuesday, May 27, 2008

A God of My Understanding

A God of My Understanding. Before I came to Al-Anon, I did not really have a good grasp of God. Better be careful, you may still not have a grasp of God, dear Joseph. When I first came to Al-Anon, I probably was in too much pain to realize how many times God and He is referred to in this program - in the 12 Steps. Had I recognized this, I probably would not have kept coming back.

It wasn't until I needed help - when no one else could help me - that I turned my will over to the God of my understanding. I needed help and He was there. If you asked me if I would be writing this ever - and I mean ever - I would tell you - you were/are nuts.

Tonight at the Men's Meeting we discussed how we can place God into our daily workings - you know - the small stuff - the things at work - a meeting, a phone call, an employee, etc. The small things - a child who is cranky, a dog that won't heel, the guy who cuts you off in traffic, etc.

Not just with the alcoholic. Because our disease, has infiltrated all other parts of our lives and has in some ways, made us unreasonable or cranky or not patient or not serene.

I noticed a couple of key points tonight I would like to share while they are still on my mind;

  1. God is always there. You have to listen.
  2. Be patient. God is telling us this all the time.
  3. Be patient some more
  4. When we force solutions because God has not answered our prayers, we are usually screwing something up (because we were not patient).
  5. God has three answers when you pray or ask for something; 1.) Yes 2.) Not yet and 3.) I have something better in store for you.
  6. A God of my understanding. So many of us have been hurt, that at the time we could not fathom a God allowing this to happen - But over time we realize that a God of MY understanding - not someone else's or any organized religion saying IT IS THIS WAY - PERIOD.
  7. I saw on a bumper sticker at a meeting place that has AA and Al-Anon attendees; "God is too big for just one religion." I really like that one.
  8. God has a plan. This gives me comfort.
  9. When I am not present - I am in my head and my ego is mastering me. I must stay present. I believe this is where God is.
  10. Someone said tonight, they really didn't get the full meaning of Step 1 until he went through and worked Steps 2 and 3.

I hope this helps tonight and Wednesday. I hope you are all very well.

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

God knows the intent of one's heart. He knows when you are listening, and when you not...

He knows when you are praying from a place of humility, or a place of fear...

He knows the timing of all things, and still allows us to bumble our way through, many times looking back, a lesson well learned.

When he answers prayer, he knows we are ready to recieve the gift, not a day sooner, not a day later.

He knows the intent of the heart....!

I know that without my God as I know him, I am nothing short of a lost soul, without purpose, or meaning in this place we call life.

Peace this Wed.

KevinB.

Anonymous said...

God knows the intent of one's heart. He knows when you are listening, and when you not...

He knows when you are praying from a place of humility, or a place of fear...

He knows the timing of all things, and still allows us to bumble our way through, many times looking back, a lesson well learned.

When he answers prayer, he knows we are ready to recieve the gift, not a day sooner, not a day later.

He knows the intent of the heart....!

I know that without my God as I know him, I am nothing short of a lost soul, without purpose, or meaning in this place we call life.

Peace this Wed.

KevinB.

Anonymous said...

God knows the intent of one's heart. He knows when you are listening, and when you not...

He knows when you are praying from a place of humility, or a place of fear...

He knows the timing of all things, and still allows us to bumble our way through, many times looking back, a lesson well learned.

When he answers prayer, he knows we are ready to recieve the gift, not a day sooner, not a day later.

He knows the intent of the heart....!

I know that without my God as I know him, I am nothing short of a lost soul, without purpose, or meaning in this place we call life.

Peace this Wed.

KevinB.

Mary said...

Having faith is hard for me. For years and years I was extremely angry, even enraged at God that I got the family that I did. Coming to terms with that has been difficult not to say impossible.

I have faith these days that I am where I am supposed to be.

maresie.

Syd said...

Maybe God is in the details such as the little things in life. I know that every day I'm seeing how God works in my life and in my trying to do the right thing.

TraceyBaby said...

Excellent post. "God has a plan"~~I don't know. That is the only thing you wrote that I am not clear on.

I have always had faith and believed in prayer but never to the extent that I do now, working a 12-step program.

Some people believe that we should not bother God with trivial things but I am not one of them. If I can't find something, I say a quick prayer and it comes right to mind.